I've come up again on the rollercoaster and through conversation with my dearest mum - my bestie, I've come to realise that although this is a really difficult thing, it could also be something really good. I have known all through our realtionship that this is something Alex has desired to do and he wants to fulfill that dream before settling down. I would never stop him, despite my best efforts to try and get him to stay - as any girlfriend would I'm sure.. - I know this is something he hasn't just thought of lightly and he's not just up and leaving me out of the blue. I have to trust and go with the flow, it could make us even stronger and show our true love for each other, or it could show us something that may not have worked out in the future anyway. I need to make sure I'm prepared and ready to handle whatever happens. But for now, I just need to stick to being open hearted, open minded, trusting and strong. I am a mature adult and I know that we can make this work, despite my perfectly normal worries. I also need to make sure that as much as I want Alex to keep me in the loop with everything, I need him to know how important it is that he knows how I'm feeling at times, when I have my ups and downs and that he needs to be supportive to me as well.
A friend passed this scripture onto me;
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5, 6 NIV)
"Lord, I give this situation to you, you take control of it and let your will be done, I choose to trust in you. In Jesus name, Amen."
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